Have you heard of the movie High School Musical? Well, as a kid, I thought high school would be pretty much like that. It turns out instead of having after school detention with Mrs. Darbus making props for the drama department, I get detention with the darling Mrs. Moore in a room where 30 minutes feels like an eternity. An eternity is all I needed to come to the realization that my days as a Lindsay Cardinal are numbered. It’s both exciting and nerve-wracking. I’m expecting a lot more work later on this year and next year; which, I’m not complaining about. The more I work, the more I feel like I’m doing something with my life. This school year, I’ve been involved with school than I ever was my freshman and sophomore year. I’ve also became more social, which of course, wasn’t my first priority. I personally think that my junior year has not gotten any harder. If anything it’s gotten a lot easier. So when my friends talk about how much they stress over school work, I feel like I’m doing something wrong. Of course, that’s not the case. It’s more so that I know how to manage my time efficiently and I don’t overthink my work when it’s not necessary. Summer of 2014 I made a decision that I’ve pondered over for quite a while: I will be switching from a university track student to a diploma track student. It is a decision that I made on my own. I want to take things slow after high school. Since my anxiety and hyperactivity has increased over the past year, I think it’s a smart idea to not overload myself with a lot of school work. “Don’t bite off more than you can chew”: a little saying I like to live by. I’ve made the decision for my own wellbeing, and I’m 100% aware of the outcome. Although, that does not mean I’m not up for any challenges. I sometimes like to challenge myself to see how far I can go; though, I have habit of falling back due to fear that I will fail. Nobody likes to fail, but failing makes you grow as a person. I know that sounds really cliché but it’s so true. I’ve never liked failing but if the fear of failure is going to keep me from becoming successful later on in life. If I’m going to make decision based off failure when my decisions matter most in life, I have to do something about that. This year I’m going to dedicate myself in challenging myself, and learn how to accept failure.
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